I Have Face Tattoos
The first thing to note is that fantasy does not simply realize a desire in a hallucinatory way: rather, its function is similar to that of Kantian ‘transcendental schematism’: a fantasy constitutes our desire, provides its coordinates; that is, it literally ‘teaches us how to desire’. . . . fantasy mediates between the formal symbolic structure and the positivity of the objects we encounter in reality — that is to say, it provides a ‘schema’ according to which certain positive objects in reality can function as objects of desire, filling in the empty places opened up by the formal symbolic structure. To put it in somewhat simplified terms: fantasy does not mean that when I desire a strawberry cake and cannot get it in reality, I fantasize about eating it; the problem is, rather: how do I know that I desire a strawberry cake in the first place? This is what fantasy tells me. - Zizek The Plaque of Fantasies p7
What is Chantelle? A rough list of items with a name, naively. But when you call my name you are not calling on a list of attributes or behaviours or whatevers to which the name Chantelle belongs. It is that through the actions of living I fall into my name creating this whole other je ne sais quoi. That is what you are calling.
My current perturbation is that, though you do not see them, I would like you who call upon me to add to my list of stuff that is ‘me’ a whole bunch of face tattoos. Why? Because, they are there, activating my own fantasty of what I am. I sublate my current imposed middle aged lady frame using Post Malone notions. In other words, this is just an update: I now have invisible face tattoos.